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03 March 2009 @ 03:49 pm
today was a very long and not exciting day. xp I did my comm. speech today.. not so good. My stupid A.G. was so embarrassing!! Haha, the language was in Spanish, in fact the video was the wrong one, but I couldn't my other one. x] Geez, I suck!! Ugh and my speech was only three minutes when it was supposed to be 4-5 minutes!!! eek, I have a feeling I got a bad grade!!! xpxpxp I'm so embarrassing! Oh my god!!! >.<; At least I got over with it though right? Hehe... fkgkdlspskd;fke Anyways, tri 2 ends this thursday! Yippie. This Friday will probably be the best I'll ever have this year, because it's my friends bday, I don't have any school that day, and I'm going to Wisconsin! :D eh eh!! Well I guess I'm gonna stop here today, I'm getting tired.
Feeling : : empty
Listening To : : Insmonia- Craig David
03 March 2009 @ 03:46 pm
You're packing your bag for that other desert island—the one with no electricity—what 5 books do you take with you?
Easy, I'd take:
1. twilight
2. new moon
3. eclipse
4. breaking dawn
5. flipped

02 March 2009 @ 05:47 pm
Ok, well today was a very good day!
I was happy and the most random I was in days!!!
But uh, me and my friend have made up our minds now.
We can be friends but not best friends.
I think we both will like things better that way. ;]
It was awkward seeing her,
haha what am I saying though?
I didn't even talk to her once today,
I texted her though hehe.
Um.. what else ah-mazing happened in my life today?
Uh.. er... I found out that Super Junior's  3rd re-packaged album
is only $12.00!! hahaha, yup I'm a super jr fan, so add me if you're
one too. I really don't know what else extrodinary happened,
except that I have a science test tomorrow... I didn't study one bit.
>.< Need to go do that.
See YA!
Feeling : : cheerful
Listening To : : Insmonia- Craig David
27 February 2009 @ 04:31 pm
I love that song, Dead and Gone- T.I. Even though it's a very sad song, it still has really good lyrics and beautiful instruments in it. But um anyways.... I had school today. I was wishing to get snowed in or sick, apparently, neither of those things happened. xp Today went by sooo slow, actually, this week was probably one of the longest one's I ever had in.... forever! Aw.... but everything went pretty fine today. Pretty normal and usual as always. My best friend and I are still in a fight, I don't know when the heck we'll be friends again... or maybe we'll never be. Bleh. But you know what? I guess I don't really care anymore, I've already said my sorrys, I just need to know why she's still all huffy-and-puffy with me! haha. Subject is being changed now.

Ok... school?! Nah... I don't wanna talk about the subject that makes me most stressed out. I had a stupid test today, had to learn 60 words. bleh. xp I think that test was pretty stupid 'cause it doesn't go in any of my grades, it's just a "reward" thing for getting these words right. Geez.... teachers these days!! But um.. I did have a math test yesterday, I'm pretty sure I did bad. My last one was pretty good though. 46/50! hehe, go me~ ^^ I still wonder why I keep going to school honestly, probably to only see my besties!! hehe, I love the people who can make my day when I don't even have to tell them what's wrong! haha... that didn't really make sense, oh well. It did to me :P

.....Shopping?!! Yea! I want to do something fun today like go to the movies or shopping. Haha... or something that doesnt involve so much money. hehe.... well I'm gonna go have fun.... I still don't know how, but I'm gonna go! byebye!~


Feeling : : awake
Listening To : : Dead And Gone- T.I.
21 February 2009 @ 10:12 am
Well its been a week or 2 since i posted in my LJ. I've been meaning to post, but I'm so caught up with life and just handling stuff. I honestly don't know what to write. I think my best friend is annoyed and mad at me. I guess things will figure out by itself though. >.< I just want her back. x[ ugh I'm such a dope for moping around instead of just telling her how I feel. God, I'm a loser. -_- I don't think I can take it anymore, I just want everything back as it was before. Life was so easy back then, so damn innocent. I just really feel like shit right now, I don't know what to do or how to do it. I can't relax until everything's settled, I'm just one of those people. I guess if I don't really mean that much to my best friend anymore, than I should just maybe move on. There are so many words I want to tell her, but I just can't. I don't have the guts to tell her that no matter what, I'll always be there for her. Ugh, I really am a loser! x[ Damn it, I suck so much! So much for being brave and strong. I really don't know what to do anymore, it's like everything is falling apart in my life. And the person that I need most isn't even there for me anymore. :[ Why does my life have to be so messed up?! I've talked to everyone, but not the person I want to talk to the most. I mean, argh. For like 3 days now, I've been thinking of what to tell Naomi, and I just can't whenever I see her, like this is wrong. I'm sorry, but what's her problem anyways? Why does she have the right to be mad, or sad, or annoyed at me?! I should be the one, wait, I am! Urgh, it just hurts to know that we're both fading apart. I just want to tell her that even if we won't be best friends anymore, I'll always be there for her. Even if she doesn't want to be my friend, then I won't be her friend anymore because if she needs me out of her life to make me happy, then I'll walk out of her life. I'll always care for her and be there for her, even through 8th and probably high school. Even if I'll be the last person that she'll come crying to, I wouldn't care, as long as she has someone. (sorry, i sound like a lesbo.)  but then how do I tell her so I don't sound gay? Ugh I don't know, life just sucks like a mofo now. Ever since I started avoiding j, we started fading apart. Ever since she got closer w/ keisha, we kinda stopped talking to each other. =[ I'm so sad because of her, I cried because of her and yet she's just frickin pissed off and annoyed probably by my actions and words. Well I'm sorry for being emo, I just really need her by my side. I thought she'd be the person who'd walk in when the world walks out, but it seems like she walked out when the world walked in. I guess she just doesn't need me anymore... =[ I don't blame anyone but me. If I told naomi how I felt nothing would've been so screwed up. If I just ignored j and hadn't of avoided him, then me and her wouldn't of faded apart. I blame myself for everything, but I don't want to be the person to say sorry to her, because I don't exactly know what I did wrong. I'll say sorry to her until I know what I've done wrong, because I don't want to say sorry to her w/o knowing what I did. Actions speak louder than words, and both of her words and actions are speaking louder than ever. Should I really just walk out of her life? If she really wants me to, then I will. It's just like what she asked me on the phone one day, If jay ever asked her out and said that he'd still be her bf only if she wasn't best friends anymore. I told her that I wouldn't be her friend anymore, because I wanted her to be happy with jay. Except this time, it's not with jay in this situation. It's her who can make the decision, if she wants me to be her friend, then I'll be her friend. If she doesn't want me to be her friend, then I'll stop being her friend. I really and truly do care about her, so if she doesn't need me, then i'll walk out of her life for her to be happy. If only she knew how much I cared about her. I don't care if I'll be the last person she'll have to come to during tough times, as long as she know's that I'll be there for her. Maybe not forever, but for now. I guess I'll tell her maybe today on the phone or on monday, I think today will be better... she'll probably ignore my call. =[ awe i suck! >.<

Feeling : : sad
14 February 2009 @ 07:43 am
Happy Valentine's Day everyone! (Whether if you have a boyfriend (or girlfriend) or not.) I don't have one to celebrate with but that's okay. I was suppose to go shopping today because of V-day, but it got canceled. =( Oh well.... I'll go tomorrow. Er I don't really know what to write, my brain's empty. Hehe.... I woke up pretty early today! Gawd... xp I could be sleeping right now.~~ I don't know why I woke up at seven in the morning!!!!! >.< I do have a three day weekend (president's day). Yay. ^^

Well.... umm I can't really think of anything else, so I'll go. =]

Feeling : : blank
08 February 2009 @ 02:55 pm
sunday's are the most boring in my opinion. there's absolutely nothing to do. sundays are homework days! i don't think i have any homework due tomorrow though so I'm free! yesssss.... ^^ Or maybe I do have homework and I'm just "forgetting" to do it. I don't know, I should check my planner, but I don't really want to. Yea, I'm a slacker... well kinda. Talking about school, I've gotten my grades up! Yuppie!!~ Except that on science test, I got 19/30 (11 wrong). hehe ^^ My grade was a B and it turned into a C. haha... yea. I mostly have A-s and just a couple of Bs. I'm a little nervous for my speech in comm. though. It has to be 5 minutes long. I know it may seem very short to you, but that's pretty long to me! Considering that I'm shy and have stage fright. argh... gee I'm so nervous and the speech is like 2 weeks away!!! eek, I might as well die. I also have swimming test coming up too, I'm not so good at swimming. In fact, I don't know how  to swim at all! -__- Hey, I have a math test tomorrow too!! Dang. So many tests and projects coming up! So much homework always due on the same day too. Rough and days give me stress. At times, I don't even I can make it to the end of the day. School takes up half of my time and then there's always homework when I'm home. So screw that, school takes up all of my day! I'm pretty sure that I can always make it though! tehe ^___^ okies, changing subject...

Hm.mm.... I really can't wait till summer! Springs almost here too. Summer's my fave season 'cause thats when my birthday is and it's alwayas so sunny! I get to go outside and cool. There's also no school!! Can you believe though, only about... 4 months until school ends! yay. Can't wait. ok this entry is going to be short like my 1st one so byebye!!~

ps: okay maybe i was wrong, I'll probably be posting more entries of life than avies. 
Feeling : : okay
Listening To : : dakrness eyes- dbsk
07 February 2009 @ 09:11 pm
uh hm... ok. what should i type up? idontknow. finally made a LIVE-journal and I'm keeping this one. I hope to update whenever I can! I'm gonna be like those girls and post up icons only... most of the times so yup. Don't be expecting me to be posting up blogs 'bout drama and love and crap and basically life. okay well since I have absoultly nothing else to write, I'm going to go now. I'm a little tired too. *yawns* Buhbyes~~! I'll try to update soon.

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Haha, wow. My first blog entry here @lj. Instead of posting up graphics, I posted up private entries of my life. Welps, I'm cool.
"You used to be much more...'muchier.' You've lost your muchness." - The Mad Hatter.
I'm afraid I've lost my muchness. It seems like I haven't grown up emotionally/ mentally a bit, but I think I've grown up tons.

- June 15, 2010
Feeling : : tired
Listening To : : Dou Shite Kimi Wo...-DBSK